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Monday, May 31, 2010
Mommy came running to my room exclaiming I will be flying to the moon aft what she had surprised me, indeed it was a splendid news but I ended up receiving disappointment. It's okay :)
you're nothing
You are the most disappointing.
You are the most painful.
You are the lowest.
You are the best shit ever that say and do another.
so
FCUK OFF
promises? lanjiao.
fcuk you and fcuk bd.
_ l _
True love? haha.
if thats what love is about, you don't deserve. you can never pay back my tears. Cross your conscience, you don't have it.
and fyi, this is my blog.
don't like it and stil continue to read?
MORON(s) is it?
and whoever i am referrin to, it might be me myself, so why are u so sick to be bothered?
GO FLY A KITE.
you are not me, what you know? all you cared was yourself.
18 sept 09.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
“Why did you choose me
out of all the faces in
all of the places?”
out of all the faces in
all of the places?”
Why can a love vanished in seconds.
It wasn't real.
Often, I think about the people who’ve walked away or drifted apart and it makes me really sad. So most time, I force myself to not think of it, and convince myself that there’s a reason why they’re not in my life now..
Well, it's true that "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger".
It's amazing how a human heart can actually take the amount of pain, it's even more surprising that accepting the reality is doubly terrifying than self-deceiving.
Because you’re hoping you’re wrong. And every time he does something that tells you he’s no good, you ignore it. And every time he comes through and surprises you, he wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself that he’s not for you.
So who am i to blame for being emotional and not able to walk out of it constantly?
Soon, it will all be over.
I'm exhausted. My brain, heart & soul need a rest and i'm doing anything to reach the dizzy height of happiness.
(yes, i missed tokyo fcuking alot. but.. were u wholeheartedly mine? it was a trip that always bring me so much memories that whenever i fall, i cant get up. e way you took care of me and every places we went, those merriment.. do you only missed em when something triggers you, when nth occupies your head or you dont miss it at all? I do, every fcuking time. well, it never left my heart. thats all. shld i smile or cry pathetically at myself?)
For once, i feel fcuking pointless to get involved in this tug-of-war.
Well, it's true that "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger".
It's amazing how a human heart can actually take the amount of pain, it's even more surprising that accepting the reality is doubly terrifying than self-deceiving.
Because you’re hoping you’re wrong. And every time he does something that tells you he’s no good, you ignore it. And every time he comes through and surprises you, he wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself that he’s not for you.
I couldn't stop this love from dying because prolly love cannot be healed. I gave more than enough chances to you but maybe it's time i stop giving chances to deceive myself. I tried to knock senses into you and now i should be doing this on me.
“ Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them, we are just for passing time while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. So, let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things are not like before. For sure there is someone out there who will love you even more. ”
— (via eletheowl)
It's all because i gave you chances to. that's e rule. now when i don't, do you think you could still achieve the same result?
“ A heart that hurts, is a heart that works. ”
So who am i to blame for being emotional and not able to walk out of it constantly?
Soon, it will all be over.
I'm exhausted. My brain, heart & soul need a rest and i'm doing anything to reach the dizzy height of happiness.
(yes, i missed tokyo fcuking alot. but.. were u wholeheartedly mine? it was a trip that always bring me so much memories that whenever i fall, i cant get up. e way you took care of me and every places we went, those merriment.. do you only missed em when something triggers you, when nth occupies your head or you dont miss it at all? I do, every fcuking time. well, it never left my heart. thats all. shld i smile or cry pathetically at myself?)
For once, i feel fcuking pointless to get involved in this tug-of-war.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
“Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy but at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either, there isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. Or rather you knew that no one could actually help you out except yourself. At least when you’re alone you wouldn't feel you're the only one left behind and there isn’t anyone who won’t take “I don’t know” for an answer. you feel the way you do just because you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again.”
It doesn't make sense to let go of something you have wanted so long;
but it also doesn't make sense to hold on when there's nothing there.
Japan was the best place ever, although it vanished in seconds.
and this time i will choose to be there with someone who will never let loose of my hands.
i will never be unhappy anymore :)
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Eat this annoying monster and return to my arms
i am your ultimate sunshine and shall always be
. . .
ATTN: NEL LAM
Seriously nel, last warning stop logging into my fb & blogger!!!!
i wil rape you tonight and no more introducing you to ah... ****. (ahem) hahahaha so stop bugging me!
READ THIS YOU CHICKEN
and oh yay, bff is coming out tonight. :)
i wil rape you tonight and no more introducing you to ah... ****. (ahem) hahahaha so stop bugging me!
READ THIS YOU CHICKEN
and oh yay, bff is coming out tonight. :)
I feel ticklish now. hahaha wtf .
Sexy & the City 2 is out!!!!! OMFG.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Nobody understands, nobody do.
Receiving disappointment for fcuking million times was never so drained than anything else.
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIT MY WORDS ANYMORE ALL I KNOW IS MY DECISION FROM NOW WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE.
I HAD ENOUGH OF HEARTACHE I HAD ENOUGH OF EMO-ING AND THEN BRAINWASHING MYSELF AND I AM BACK AT IT AGAIN.
IF I WERE TO BE SO INSIGNIFICANT AND SO MUCH FOR ALL THESE WHILE ADDS UP TO NOTHIN BUT THIS STATE, I REALLY DON'T WANT TO MAKE ANY SENSE INTO YOU.
I DON'T WANT TO CARE ANYTHING ANYMORE
IF YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO LOVE, DON'T KNOW HOW TO TREASURE. DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE THE LEAST EFFORT,
YOU DON'T DESERVE ANY FROM ANYONE.
REPEATING TRACK FOR HOURS.
TIME FOR MIRACLE.
I WERE JUST A WOMAN WHO CRY MY HEART OUT AND CAUSE UNNCESSARY STRESS
BUT AGAIN WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABT ME.
YOU WERE NEVER AFRAID BECAUSE YOU WERE NEVER LEFT ALONE.
AND I WERE THE ONE FEARING TO LOSE YOU AGAIN WHEN I ALREADY DID.
Ps: thank you for never giving me up no matter what route i choose to go. you never once left me alone whenever i needed someone. you let me see how important and good i was, and not to forget the winnie i used to be back those days. Even thou you can't replace nor share my pain, knowing how significant and important i was is already enough. When you said: "i miss times when you were always our lil joypill that brings the whole grp of us merriments." I cried, i know how silly it was to hold on to this existence of love knowing i couldn't see any future. "dont doubt yourself" i will keep this in mind.
thank you..
Receiving disappointment for fcuking million times was never so drained than anything else.
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIT MY WORDS ANYMORE ALL I KNOW IS MY DECISION FROM NOW WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE.
I HAD ENOUGH OF HEARTACHE I HAD ENOUGH OF EMO-ING AND THEN BRAINWASHING MYSELF AND I AM BACK AT IT AGAIN.
IF I WERE TO BE SO INSIGNIFICANT AND SO MUCH FOR ALL THESE WHILE ADDS UP TO NOTHIN BUT THIS STATE, I REALLY DON'T WANT TO MAKE ANY SENSE INTO YOU.
I DON'T WANT TO CARE ANYTHING ANYMORE
IF YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO LOVE, DON'T KNOW HOW TO TREASURE. DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE THE LEAST EFFORT,
YOU DON'T DESERVE ANY FROM ANYONE.
REPEATING TRACK FOR HOURS.TIME FOR MIRACLE.
I WERE JUST A WOMAN WHO CRY MY HEART OUT AND CAUSE UNNCESSARY STRESS
BUT AGAIN WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABT ME.
YOU WERE NEVER AFRAID BECAUSE YOU WERE NEVER LEFT ALONE.
AND I WERE THE ONE FEARING TO LOSE YOU AGAIN WHEN I ALREADY DID.
Ps: thank you for never giving me up no matter what route i choose to go. you never once left me alone whenever i needed someone. you let me see how important and good i was, and not to forget the winnie i used to be back those days. Even thou you can't replace nor share my pain, knowing how significant and important i was is already enough. When you said: "i miss times when you were always our lil joypill that brings the whole grp of us merriments." I cried, i know how silly it was to hold on to this existence of love knowing i couldn't see any future. "dont doubt yourself" i will keep this in mind.
thank you..
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
fat seeker
i didn't realized how noseyparker and surfaced you could be til now. why are you even bothered since you loathe it so badly? Can you please continue to eat the way you're doing so and be another 2nd earth? its mega enough not to be missed.
Are you sick in the mind? it got TOTALLY nth to do with you honestly.
sigh. what is wrong with people nowadays? Fat seeker meh?
If i were you i think i would have hung myself :(
sigh. i feel so bitchy under nel's influence. im sorry Jesus.
she was the one who asked me to blog this.
opps, push blames only. HAHAHA.
Are you sick in the mind? it got TOTALLY nth to do with you honestly.
sigh. what is wrong with people nowadays? Fat seeker meh?
If i were you i think i would have hung myself :(
sigh. i feel so bitchy under nel's influence. im sorry Jesus.
she was the one who asked me to blog this.
opps, push blames only. HAHAHA.
Von's
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY BELOVED VON TAY :)
Hope you enjoyed yourself with the neverending favourite beeers and vodka. aww, i still love you the same and thankyou for always being sucha darling lending me your ears when i need and shoulders to cry. you'reee the best although you're a bitch who loves cass koh more than me and im not ah lian i warn you. hehe. all the best to your current career. you should buy me dunhill frost soon. ahem ahem*
more gossip girls session purleasse.
more photos kindly grab @ fb. thankie.
trying to make flower balloons. eeeeeew scary shitballs they burst like nobody biz.
very naiseeee choc estacy cake from four season.
hahaha. as usual.
just for you hor i light these 3 pathetic candles for 1234567 times!!!for you only!!
My best-time scandal. hahaha can you stop changing bfs everyweek dear?next weekend = our party sessions!!
My lover my slut
Zhen zhen totally lost so much weight. She said it was due to lesser alcohol now. Serious or not? Perhaps its trueee, i think i got 2months bb bump. ahahaha simi sial. oh ya, she's stil my bestest 24yrs old listener :)
Like again i can't stop behaving as thou it was my birthday. LOL.
Dengy and me me me :)
Dengy and me me me :)
if it's not because of everyone's busy lifestyle, we could have continue our wildest and craziest girls night out. :( how i missed em. next gathering to samantha's party and mineeee, if im not lazy to plan. aha. I will always remember every souls that accompanied me thru the hardest period of my time. Very much appreciated. I love you all.
Hearts*
She sat there in heartache, pinning for some prince charming that will come trotting in her life to save her from despair even thou she jolly-well know fairytales were never real in reality. she was a vulnerable woman yet she was brave enough to fight for her desires despite facing all storms all by herself and time and time again her heart just break into pieces, almost beyond recognition. Destiny is fated, but i choose to create them.
How about your that one heart you had this lifetime?
:)
ps: nel, i am mad hungry now. sighs. how about some cheesecake at starbuck? i need to mug for my lessons tmr :( how about we learn yongchun tgt? hahahahahaha. see you hun.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
我真的真的很累
The naked-truth is always better than the best dressed lie.
If man can make the effort in lying and another lie to cover the other tale,
why can't they make the effort in speaking the truth and handle mutually like what responsible adults should do.
perhaps every human-being only think of the motive and neglecting the purposes & consequences behind so.
you're merely killing yourself &
disappointing the one that always managed to find out..
more than once
Saturday, May 22, 2010
"Just to say I love you never seems enough. I’ve said it so many times. I’m afraid you wont understand what I really mean when I say it. How can so much feeling, so much adoration possibly fit into those three little words. But until I find some other way of saying how I feel, then “I Love You” will have to do. So no matter how many times I say it, never take it lightly."What a surprised weekend.
and the behind reason.
waaaaaaa............. fcuking aimlessly bored.
oh honey, fly me to the moon.
Friday, May 21, 2010
No matter how arduous the journey is, i know i have to walk, even alone
will you pick me up halfway or no return tickets?
:) time for shopping.
edited, 1:59am
i fcuking missed japan right now. i dont know why.
i really missed every single thing.
sigh.
you need a shrink
“The problems start when we refuse to let change happen and cling to old habits. But, if we hold on to the past too tight, the future may never come.”
Learn to let go, prolly that's what love is about;
selfless and wishing all the best.
.... walao, wtf again?
will you pick me up halfway or no return tickets?
:) time for shopping.
edited, 1:59am
i fcuking missed japan right now. i dont know why.
i really missed every single thing.
sigh.
you need a shrink
“The problems start when we refuse to let change happen and cling to old habits. But, if we hold on to the past too tight, the future may never come.”
Learn to let go, prolly that's what love is about;
selfless and wishing all the best.
.... walao, wtf again?
Such alluring tights how to resist? :(
stupid nel, you didnt even get me any, fcuk your trip. don't forget you promise our hk trip on july. lets hit our luckk at macau and i get you your chloebag.
and hahah i'm still thinking of 'The losers' we watched, he is darn awesome, look at his hot hott body and 'god, you're short. Are u standing in a hole?" hahaha i told you that fellow was a dwarf right.
I've made up my mind to Japan this end year, even travelling alone.
stupid nel, you didnt even get me any, fcuk your trip. don't forget you promise our hk trip on july. lets hit our luckk at macau and i get you your chloebag.
and hahah i'm still thinking of 'The losers' we watched, he is darn awesome, look at his hot hott body and 'god, you're short. Are u standing in a hole?" hahaha i told you that fellow was a dwarf right.
I've made up my mind to Japan this end year, even travelling alone.
"You sit there in your heartache, waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways."
Will we get one more beautiful chance
Thursday, May 20, 2010
How far to carry on its pretty clear.
Gotcha focus baby, please just this once be stubborn!!!
下一站, 会幸福吗?
Gotcha focus baby, please just this once be stubborn!!!
下一站, 会幸福吗?
Frigging hottttt stuff in my wardrobe now.
Few more to go. When will it ever be enough?
Wooohoooo.
What's meant to be will always find a way.
What will be the next direction?
We all know, we all can feel so non-verbally.
"Nobody can pull you down unless you allow yourself to."
-wn
Few more to go. When will it ever be enough?
Wooohoooo.
What's meant to be will always find a way.
What will be the next direction?
We all know, we all can feel so non-verbally.
"Nobody can pull you down unless you allow yourself to."
-wn
Jia you baby!!
Keep going, find it back!!
Keep going, find it back!!
Ps: Don't want then don't.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Done with the last part of being emotional. :)
I haven start anything for upcoming exams.
Dieeeeeeee.
and nel, i know you kaypo,
you don't be a bitch lor. stop figuring out what im thinking.
but i like your 'being fat hides visions and create self-wisdom'
fat girls many taiji cannot meh? thats e only attn what.
nice one, but too bad i got the influence. hahahahaha~
Drive my car with care u bimbo. :)
I haven start anything for upcoming exams.
Dieeeeeeee.
and nel, i know you kaypo,
you don't be a bitch lor. stop figuring out what im thinking.
but i like your 'being fat hides visions and create self-wisdom'
fat girls many taiji cannot meh? thats e only attn what.
nice one, but too bad i got the influence. hahahahaha~
Drive my car with care u bimbo. :)
Last call
I was supposed to be helping to brainstorm of ideas for upcoming project until my brain freezed and the next minute i thought of you again. Not surprising, it had always been this routine ever since then. I thought of how I rained tears for you, even up til now, my desperate pleas for you to come back, how you looked into my eyes and told me how much you love me, how much you wanna recapture back those moments.
Again, i thought we were both adults able to talk anything under the moon, i thought we had this mutual understanding after so many storms. Yet you showed me how naive i was, how gullible to actually believed broken promises more than once.
Having you in my life taught me a great deal. I kept asking myself what went wrong and how should i salvage this love. I was wrong, sometimes when you're desperate to save and relive back, the further it will go away. In the first place, i shouldn't keep a heart that slipped away. I said once before: "I can give you all the freedom you want, but if you start doing shit, there's nth i could do and i wouldn't keep you anymore."
I didn't realized it was all about me. I couldn't acknowledge the fact that your heart had long ago left. You don't belong to me anymore. It felt as though it took 1 min to rush me from heaven to hell. I'd never able to let you go, knowing if i do, you'll never return, or rather I'll never be able to talk to you anymore. But maybe that wasn't what love was about, holding on something that had the liberty to choose to stay or go. You choose to go, you betrayed my trust, and each time you come back and go as when you like, you crack my heart deeper.
How am i supposed to find all e courage to move forward bravely without you completely? What is it that I'm gripping so tightly despite how things were now. "Nothing" You ain't here whenever I needed somebody. I don't need you to be a hero, I just want you to be there to prove my existence, that's all. You can promise me, promise the entire world, but never once you did it.
Deleting me from all your network and my number is one thing i took some time to recover. Never did I expect to watch you returning to her would be so extremely painful. Perhaps it was a good thing, unable to check out your recent happenings might not give me anymore heartaches. Deleting your number wasn't a help at all, because I remember you by heart & mind. Deleting your name only shows how unwillingly I am to forget.
It's true that you never stop loving someone that easily, but I guess there's reasons good enough to forget this existence of love. The only way to get over someone is when you found someone better to piece back the broken pieces and to takecare of it. You got yours, and this was how insignificant I became more of. We've only got one heart, I prefer to be true to myself. How about you?
Though there's no guarantee for love, no contracts to seal promises, you showed me how frightening it could be to feel that words are merely words and making love out of nothing at all. When things happened, you could just run away til you regain your composure, and between this period, did it ever cross to you how miserable and painful it was for me to endure and brainwashing myself for 24/7? You can lie, you can hurt me, you can treat me as nothing, you can give me falsehope, you can promise me the whole world but you cannot just leave me in the lurch trying to swim on shore whereas you are out there freeing yourself from the problems you played a part. I thought by now you wouldn't do so, i was wrong. Because right now I am pretty conscious, you were gone again, you left me alone to pick all pieces by myself. You poof without any reasons. Let me tell you this, you got no rights to do this to me after all that happened. But again, who am i to blame? I know i couldn't bear for you to be unhappy, and therefore, here I am shouldering all the burdens for you.
That will be the last time. Time never pass so hard before. My heart is in excruciating pain. Now i really see it, how insignificant & small i was. How silly i am. All i ever gave you was my purest love, and you crushed it into million pieces that you'll never be able to piece it back. I am lost for words, no words could describe how painful I am feeling right now. You're right, perhaps i should just leave if I want to and stop all this emotional talk, yet again, what you know about my feelings? Since when you cared? Or you could only think rationally after few days? And its too late, I've already gone thru it myself WITHOUT YOU EVERYTIME.
I am not a saint.
I really see it. No matter how unwillingly, how tough it gets, I know I have to do it.
Why? Because of you, because of your indecisiveness, because of your actions, I am taking all these for you.
Look at you, just like my existing tattoo, although I couldn't have you, but I'll have the feeling of you for the rest of this lifetime. However, the pain you inflict stays forever too.
And so I let go, let go of these balloons that were tugging at my heartstrings all these while..
9 months 19 days.
You are free. So am I.
How short lived our love was. How unappreciative.
How saddening. How painful.
What remains will be bouts of nostalgia.
Where have our love gone to?
Yes, you're only a human, I am as well.
Then how am i supposed to cope after everything?
I have my worries as well.
And i totally hate who i am now behaving like a sadist.
Get alife.
Again, i thought we were both adults able to talk anything under the moon, i thought we had this mutual understanding after so many storms. Yet you showed me how naive i was, how gullible to actually believed broken promises more than once.
Having you in my life taught me a great deal. I kept asking myself what went wrong and how should i salvage this love. I was wrong, sometimes when you're desperate to save and relive back, the further it will go away. In the first place, i shouldn't keep a heart that slipped away. I said once before: "I can give you all the freedom you want, but if you start doing shit, there's nth i could do and i wouldn't keep you anymore."
I didn't realized it was all about me. I couldn't acknowledge the fact that your heart had long ago left. You don't belong to me anymore. It felt as though it took 1 min to rush me from heaven to hell. I'd never able to let you go, knowing if i do, you'll never return, or rather I'll never be able to talk to you anymore. But maybe that wasn't what love was about, holding on something that had the liberty to choose to stay or go. You choose to go, you betrayed my trust, and each time you come back and go as when you like, you crack my heart deeper.
How am i supposed to find all e courage to move forward bravely without you completely? What is it that I'm gripping so tightly despite how things were now. "Nothing" You ain't here whenever I needed somebody. I don't need you to be a hero, I just want you to be there to prove my existence, that's all. You can promise me, promise the entire world, but never once you did it.
Deleting me from all your network and my number is one thing i took some time to recover. Never did I expect to watch you returning to her would be so extremely painful. Perhaps it was a good thing, unable to check out your recent happenings might not give me anymore heartaches. Deleting your number wasn't a help at all, because I remember you by heart & mind. Deleting your name only shows how unwillingly I am to forget.
It's true that you never stop loving someone that easily, but I guess there's reasons good enough to forget this existence of love. The only way to get over someone is when you found someone better to piece back the broken pieces and to takecare of it. You got yours, and this was how insignificant I became more of. We've only got one heart, I prefer to be true to myself. How about you?
Though there's no guarantee for love, no contracts to seal promises, you showed me how frightening it could be to feel that words are merely words and making love out of nothing at all. When things happened, you could just run away til you regain your composure, and between this period, did it ever cross to you how miserable and painful it was for me to endure and brainwashing myself for 24/7? You can lie, you can hurt me, you can treat me as nothing, you can give me falsehope, you can promise me the whole world but you cannot just leave me in the lurch trying to swim on shore whereas you are out there freeing yourself from the problems you played a part. I thought by now you wouldn't do so, i was wrong. Because right now I am pretty conscious, you were gone again, you left me alone to pick all pieces by myself. You poof without any reasons. Let me tell you this, you got no rights to do this to me after all that happened. But again, who am i to blame? I know i couldn't bear for you to be unhappy, and therefore, here I am shouldering all the burdens for you.
That will be the last time. Time never pass so hard before. My heart is in excruciating pain. Now i really see it, how insignificant & small i was. How silly i am. All i ever gave you was my purest love, and you crushed it into million pieces that you'll never be able to piece it back. I am lost for words, no words could describe how painful I am feeling right now. You're right, perhaps i should just leave if I want to and stop all this emotional talk, yet again, what you know about my feelings? Since when you cared? Or you could only think rationally after few days? And its too late, I've already gone thru it myself WITHOUT YOU EVERYTIME.
I am not a saint.
I really see it. No matter how unwillingly, how tough it gets, I know I have to do it.
Why? Because of you, because of your indecisiveness, because of your actions, I am taking all these for you.
Look at you, just like my existing tattoo, although I couldn't have you, but I'll have the feeling of you for the rest of this lifetime. However, the pain you inflict stays forever too.
And so I let go, let go of these balloons that were tugging at my heartstrings all these while..
9 months 19 days.
You are free. So am I.
How short lived our love was. How unappreciative.
How saddening. How painful.
What remains will be bouts of nostalgia.
Where have our love gone to?
Yes, you're only a human, I am as well.
Then how am i supposed to cope after everything?
I have my worries as well.
And i totally hate who i am now behaving like a sadist.
Get alife.
when you're in the mist of anger and trying to stop the unnecessary conflict caused by me or not,
did it ever cross your mind how i felt at the exact moment.
im a burden.
im already vexed enough.
why must you give abrupt and derange messages.
How true it is,
one thing for sure,
i know my stand.
im sorry.
did it ever cross your mind how i felt at the exact moment.
im a burden.
im already vexed enough.
why must you give abrupt and derange messages.
How true it is,
one thing for sure,
i know my stand.
im sorry.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
for the empty fills
You broke my heart countless times, but I never gave up on you.
You were like balloons, knowing if i let go, it'll fly away, it'll never return.
Holding on to something that had the liberty to choose, to stay or go.
When you know which path you should be taking, you go for it and when you are handling it to the golden platter, you are afraid to continue.
Never once i succeeded in setting free my heartstrings that were tugging, because my mind, my heart, my soul- it was all about you. I began to live my life for you, way before it was, even til now.
This existence of love;
a fairytale with happy ending, a companion that carries mutual understanding, there isn't a need for lies, isn't a need to feel drained, isn't a need to feel frightened because you know everything will be alright.
Or
a closing chapter, every familiar thing triggers you and nothing you can do to have that similar feeling back, all you left with was bouts of nostalgia.
All it takes is to pluck out the courage and you'll see it in a different light.
Is there a need to prove that you're way more significant, to be top piority and end of the day is that what you want? Why does every human-being reacts this way?
I never left, I will always be, unless im not the reason.
I missed those times, those moments i could never recapture.
I missed those days when you said you couldnt live without me.
I missed those haha-times when we could laugh and joke abt anything.
I missed those times you cook and cuddle tgt to sleep.
and lastly,
I missed when we smell like my favourite strawberry,
together; one-and-only.
It wil be a neverending cycle, you're not me.
you won't know how hard it was for me.
PS: I.love.you
3 simple words is enough.
Bidding goodbye never felt so painful
I'll never get to feel you anymore, even emptytalks, at least u bothered to lie.
My presence will just fade away & disappear..
Acknowledge this fact;
he loves her. no longer you..
I don't know how's life gonna be without you completely,
and i know i just got to deal with it.
I miss you, very badly.
You were like balloons, knowing if i let go, it'll fly away, it'll never return.
Holding on to something that had the liberty to choose, to stay or go.
When you know which path you should be taking, you go for it and when you are handling it to the golden platter, you are afraid to continue.
Never once i succeeded in setting free my heartstrings that were tugging, because my mind, my heart, my soul- it was all about you. I began to live my life for you, way before it was, even til now.
This existence of love;
a fairytale with happy ending, a companion that carries mutual understanding, there isn't a need for lies, isn't a need to feel drained, isn't a need to feel frightened because you know everything will be alright.
Or
a closing chapter, every familiar thing triggers you and nothing you can do to have that similar feeling back, all you left with was bouts of nostalgia.
All it takes is to pluck out the courage and you'll see it in a different light.
Is there a need to prove that you're way more significant, to be top piority and end of the day is that what you want? Why does every human-being reacts this way?
I never left, I will always be, unless im not the reason.
I missed those times, those moments i could never recapture.
I missed those days when you said you couldnt live without me.
I missed those haha-times when we could laugh and joke abt anything.
I missed those times you cook and cuddle tgt to sleep.
and lastly,
I missed when we smell like my favourite strawberry,
together; one-and-only.
It wil be a neverending cycle, you're not me.
you won't know how hard it was for me.
PS: I.love.you
3 simple words is enough.
Bidding goodbye never felt so painful
I'll never get to feel you anymore, even emptytalks, at least u bothered to lie.
My presence will just fade away & disappear..
Acknowledge this fact;
he loves her. no longer you..
I don't know how's life gonna be without you completely,
and i know i just got to deal with it.
I miss you, very badly.
:)
November 11, 2009, 3:54:05 PM
A very long ago meal at Suntec for all time fav Japanese Cuisine and never did i expect it was the last before things turned upside down, it was the last perfect dinner, when i was officially the one.
:)
How time flies..
A very long ago meal at Suntec for all time fav Japanese Cuisine and never did i expect it was the last before things turned upside down, it was the last perfect dinner, when i was officially the one.
:)
How time flies..
Everybody is going on with their life perfectly well,
everybody is doing things that they had to
except me
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"There’s a big difference between; who we love, who we settle for, and who were meant for."
It's amazing, really, just how much pain the human heart can take.
Look what you've done.
:(
i got this effing urge to run over and hug you now and pray that time would just stop im willing to exchange for anything.
too pain too hard to breathe, again.
Monday, May 17, 2010
YSL love
Effing gorgeous!!
My special day is coming. any best friends out there? hahaha
and oh, everybody mistook me as siam bu aft i cut my hair. smlj.
hongkie actress can?
Sunday, May 16, 2010
You can feel when someone you hold close to your heart is slipping away, little by little. It’s when the mere thought of losing a goodfriend can bring you to tears almost instantly. The pain you are beginning to feel can crush your entire heart. Yet everything that you try to do to solve the problems only push them further and further away from you. When the only chance of getting back to the way things were in the beginning is to hope this person realized what they may be losing.
I'm afraid i'll never get this right, for you, for us.
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“ You’re going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it’s always their actions you should judge them by. It’s actions, not words, that matter. ”
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" What you do to me feels like I’m floating on air. I don’t need to know right now, all I know is I believe in the very thing that got us here and now I can’t leave. ”
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"You can never really know someone completely. That’s why it’s the most terrifying thing in the world, really- taking someone on faith, hoping they’ll take you on faith too."
Will you
Did you
Saturday, May 15, 2010
total waste of my heart
On a perfect and indescribable mutual last night.
fascination
When we meet someone and fall in love, we have a sense that the whole universe is on our side. And yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left. How is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before to vanish so quickly? Life moves very fast. It rushes from heaven to hell in a matter of seconds.
Thats how cruel reality can be. Live it or let the walls crumble.
I tried to warn, but if only pain can open to one, im sorry.
I tried more than enough, it wasn't you but me who choose to be stubbornly stupid. i don't see it despite umpteen times.
who are we to blame? who am i to cry my heart out with.
how much worth love gets when there is nth can be done.
how much longer i need to face this alone.
just how much i need to do to make some sense out of it
or all along i was wrong abt this.
and again,
im not at it.
it just something that wasn't over.
it's gonna be,
from the moment you aint here again, not surprising,
tonight;
shall be a new beginning.
im not at it again.
you are.
Ps; i dont have e enough power & love to tug u to sleep on your insomnia nights.
like again, you love me, prove it.
Be true to your heart, you've only got one of it.
Too late for regrets, nothing is not too late esp when too much had happened.
Take it or leave it.
i am used to facing all by myself. what can be even more painful & worse than breakdown?
Thats how cruel reality can be. Live it or let the walls crumble.
I tried to warn, but if only pain can open to one, im sorry.
I tried more than enough, it wasn't you but me who choose to be stubbornly stupid. i don't see it despite umpteen times.
who are we to blame? who am i to cry my heart out with.
how much worth love gets when there is nth can be done.
how much longer i need to face this alone.
just how much i need to do to make some sense out of it
or all along i was wrong abt this.
and again,
im not at it.
it just something that wasn't over.
it's gonna be,
from the moment you aint here again, not surprising,
tonight;
shall be a new beginning.
im not at it again.
you are.
Ps; i dont have e enough power & love to tug u to sleep on your insomnia nights.
like again, you love me, prove it.
Be true to your heart, you've only got one of it.
Too late for regrets, nothing is not too late esp when too much had happened.
Take it or leave it.
i am used to facing all by myself. what can be even more painful & worse than breakdown?
I really can't bear to be cruel and hurt your feelings, after so long. And I'm wondering how could you have done the same thing and threw me behind crying back for millions of times.
Something bad just happened, im in the brink of breaking down. i shouldnt have tried to convince myself that this time round it might be different because when i see it's still e same, it added on to my devastation.
Friday, May 14, 2010
uh huh
Ain't a superwoman and still sentimental
but
withdrawing symptoms..
but
withdrawing symptoms..
HAHAHA!! lame but powerful enough to laugh for 1 year.
jiu kong just got the jiaobin to act. he rocks however im the better IP MAN!!
Enjoy~
jiu kong just got the jiaobin to act. he rocks however im the better IP MAN!!
Enjoy~
Shoe addiction is back.
New target; even skinner legs than now.
:)
DSLR and Samantha is currently in my fav list. Hehe.
This is so fcuking CHIOOO.
Rain me money
New target; even skinner legs than now.
:)
DSLR and Samantha is currently in my fav list. Hehe.
This is so fcuking CHIOOO.
Rain me moneyanddd
heal my bruises on both of my knees. biggg patch of blueblack.
anyone is hungry?
i am hungry for next week.
don't tell you why.
Why almost every girls nowadays like to spend money on flowers for guys at club now?
can you all chip in for my Celine or DrMartin instead? :)
oh wait,
KELLY is a disgusting anorexic bitch.
dont try to hook up. go back to your third world country.
my boy, behave or i show u how my power. muahaha.
back to meeting. siansxz
:(
把手放了
我也许会比较快乐
我也许会换个情人
我也许不会再撑
真的够了
能不能让雨别再下了
能不能让心别再疼了
能不能不要开灯
我们的爱跟着
你写的剧本
出现了越来越多的角色
我是你什么人
如果不是情人
是不是不要
再浪费我的人生
你比我更清楚
你对我多好
多温柔 多认真
不构成爱我的资格
除非你只看着我
想着我 只有我
爱本来就该独一无二
为你伤心多一点 少一点
流下的眼泪都一样不值得
世界上那么多人
只有我 一个人
能拯救自己的快乐
不要再为你哭了
Changi Beach facing the slow breeze blowing gently at our faces together with the slightest humming of this song.
He added it was beautiful. how beautiful.
Does the involve party remember what im saying?
我也许会比较快乐
我也许会换个情人
我也许不会再撑
真的够了
能不能让雨别再下了
能不能让心别再疼了
能不能不要开灯
我们的爱跟着
你写的剧本
出现了越来越多的角色
我是你什么人
如果不是情人
是不是不要
再浪费我的人生
你比我更清楚
你对我多好
多温柔 多认真
不构成爱我的资格
除非你只看着我
想着我 只有我
爱本来就该独一无二
为你伤心多一点 少一点
流下的眼泪都一样不值得
世界上那么多人
只有我 一个人
能拯救自己的快乐
不要再为你哭了
Changi Beach facing the slow breeze blowing gently at our faces together with the slightest humming of this song.
He added it was beautiful. how beautiful.
Does the involve party remember what im saying?
Thursday, May 13, 2010
its dawn yet again
It’s sad when you realise that love doesn’t take away your pain or heal your wounds or salve your conscience or assuage your guilt or save your soul. If anything, it makes a bigger mess of you because you become aware of just how empty you really are when he lets go of your hand, of how alone you are..
I need a long catch of breathe, the perfect time to really let it go and remember for who i am, to return to reality and not living in fragments of fantasy and hoping for miracle.
ahh, i forsee a brighter and colorful days ahead :)
i love my new hair.
i love the pooh bear with familiar scent.
life's gonna be great,
when you choose it to be.
I need a long catch of breathe, the perfect time to really let it go and remember for who i am, to return to reality and not living in fragments of fantasy and hoping for miracle.
ahh, i forsee a brighter and colorful days ahead :)
i love my new hair.
i love the pooh bear with familiar scent.
life's gonna be great,
when you choose it to be.
Was using desktop and I browse thru all old time pictures taken.
How time really flies. It felt it were only a month back or so..
This is the current 2010 me before i changed a hairstyle just ytd. lol.
The first shoot i had.
Younger bro and me on our way to Serangoon for bb cousin first month :)
hahahah this is ultimate joke. bff with his long hair. omg~~
How time really flies. It felt it were only a month back or so..
This is the current 2010 me before i changed a hairstyle just ytd. lol.
The first shoot i had.
Younger bro and me on our way to Serangoon for bb cousin first month :)
hahahah this is ultimate joke. bff with his long hair. omg~~botak boy now. hahaha.
Sentosa was sooooo fun~ my fav RTW*
Poly times. Sigh. I missed the whole bunch of us being notorious. Times when we skipped classes, overslept, smoke and all the merriments. :)
Me & Jenny at BQ. in a blink of eye she's gonna be a mom of 2 .
Dining at my fav Dingtaifeng
Cine's HK Cafe with usual cliques and this is my bestest buddy/angel SK!! :)
Evon & me.
Sentosa was sooooo fun~ my fav RTW*
Poly times. Sigh. I missed the whole bunch of us being notorious. Times when we skipped classes, overslept, smoke and all the merriments. :)
Me & Jenny at BQ. in a blink of eye she's gonna be a mom of 2 .
Dining at my fav Dingtaifeng
Cine's HK Cafe with usual cliques and this is my bestest buddy/angel SK!! :)
Evon & me.Memories :)
Hyper active yanyan & me at Le-bar. the never-fail-to-get-wasted gf. haha.
Hyper active yanyan & me at Le-bar. the never-fail-to-get-wasted gf. haha. i looked so chubby :(
Fav hotmuffin @ Cafe Cartel.
TPSS moments. BEST MAN. thou i alw complain the waking time and getting yellow form for late everyday til huimin got fed up with me. haha. I miss you people :(
Muffins from Crystal Jade with RT. I was jumping up and down like a kid.
I missed those times where we took our DSLR and camwhore.
Fav hotmuffin @ Cafe Cartel.
TPSS moments. BEST MAN. thou i alw complain the waking time and getting yellow form for late everyday til huimin got fed up with me. haha. I miss you people :(
Muffins from Crystal Jade with RT. I was jumping up and down like a kid.
I missed those times where we took our DSLR and camwhore.I miss you gf..
Bangs and cap days.
Sylvia and me at le-bar one. Such a small world we had common friends.
Bangs and cap days.
Sylvia and me at le-bar one. Such a small world we had common friends.
On a memorable Xmas night countdown.
And lastly...
And lastly...
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The first flyer i went with him.
The first flyer i went with him.
I only really learnt how to cherish things and people around me til someone i loved dearly passed away. The thought of it pains me and no matter what i do i know i cannot bring you back anymore. Thank you for everything girl. I will always keep you in my heart and remember all the words you told me once to live on bravely.
R.I.P.
i seriously miss you, really i do..
To someone: Im so jaded but i know what im suppose to do. To let this love sparkle or flame to dust, you hold a part..
Post updated pic of my new hairstyle soooon & im loving it~ needs to catch a long breathe and wake up to reality.
It's definitely not a issue to give up Jay's 24th concert for upcoming Luo zhi xiang's!!
He's dead gorgeous. omfg~~~~~
However, this song is up the track. Hehe :)
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
I know you'll never come home.
I know.
I know.
Monday, May 10, 2010
10th
You told me once, "together we will make it"
You added saying how unbearable it was for you to send me home
For all that happened,
what im afraid most had come..
How i hoped i died in the accident as well,im sorry i left you alone.
i couldnt find you anywhere now.
i lost him & why do you have to leave me too..
I wish to forget everything clean,
and if time can turn back, i will never work at moonshine.
dear sis, if you are here still, bring my pain away can you..