Winnielim

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Our last conver, tears & supper

Edited: 2:57am, Sun.
I am fcuking at home right now. I cannot believe i am really at home when im supposed to spend today's heartwrenching Saturday outside in whatever place that is cool with to get you of out my head. Well, i guess im not running away from this inevitable fact you're enjoying and probably in arms with her right now. C'mon, what can be more painful now. Come get me, carry on.

i cannot sleep sia. my menstration cramp is very terrible. chao cheebye <- thats very crude. haha dont mind me. knn bye i need to smoke my life away, temporary . i was stil hoping the very least you could do was to talk to me before you offically leave.. but i know this day wouldn't come. you are gone for good, with her. (i am badly in pain now & how's was the celebration? :) Ended, 3.09am

Wednesday;
with all your promises, words, arms around me and we burst out crying. it was only 3days ago and now you're at it, again. Nobody understands. I couldn't explain our magical bond, deep down i know it was real, how painful it was to be separated and torturing it gets to see us fading away with time.


But now, i am doubting every single thing, even your tears. You couldn't even fulfilled your promise to me, it was sucha simple one. What more can i ask for? I don't have a right to comment, im not whoever. Still, thanks for putting up the show that very night. At least for that few hours i don't feel the agony. A pity you didn't acknowledge my words once again, i got nothing else to say after 6 months of persisting. You'll never be able to do it, for me.


How many times i've been in this vicious cycle. How many times i choose to believe you. How many times you broke my heart and cheated my entire-being? Why do i still choose to see you in the end? Just because i love you, a very simple 'i love you'. And just because of this, you made use of me. I wanted to, but i can't.


I am certain i wouldn't do this to you, someone i loved dearly.
I am sorry for myself, sorry for landing up this way despite knowing your trueself.
I don't deserve any of these. One day, when you're all alone, ask yourself, who is the first one that came to your mind. I'll be happy if your ans will be me, but im sorry, it'll be all too late.

Ps: thanks for the last night of supper. i've been longing to sit down for a meal with you. and, i wont forget all our silly actions when we're tgt. like when we threw our cigg against those bikes below my block. i smiled.

Do it for me, don't promise me anything anymore.
Im just a ordinary girl. Dont play my heart. Please.

(jfyi, my heart is crushing badly knowing you'll be tgt with her 21st tgt with yr friends tonight wheareas i will be somewhere crying my heart out hating you but i stil want you to be happy. this is how ironic.) i know you won't bother me anymore..

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